Good and Bad. Warped and Cash.

There are 2 subjects I wanna blog about.
The first: This past weekend I went to the final 2 Warped Tours of this year. The first one was on August 22nd in Chula Vista (near San Diego) with Annie and Cash/Cathy. It was REALLY hot and sticky, but great time nonetheless:] We BARELY made it in time to finish Forever The Sickest Kids’ set, we only got to watch the last half which made me sad, but it’s ok I’ve seen them I think like 8 times before. Anyways, the highlights of the day was when I went to go meet the lead singer from FTSK, Jonathan Cook…and like always, he was SUPER NICE. I went to the meet and greet like JUST before he was gonna leave so I was kinda nervous I wouldn’t be able to say hi to him, but then RIGHT before he was gonna leave he pointed at me && told me to COME OVER!! && he signed my arm and I took a pic w/him and told him I loved him.. and ahhhhh he said “i<33you too” and that just drove me carazy<33!! Haha, and when I went to Versa’s signing again they remembered me from the past warped shows in JUNE!! It’s been like 2 months && they remembered me… Sierra had this cute toy megaphone && when I came up to them she used it on me haha “DO I KNOW YOU?!” && I was all “I don’t know DO YOU?!” and she said, “Yupp, I think I doooo.” Awww<33 But it TOTALLY made my day when I looked over at Blake && he gave me the BIGGEST smile of life.. “Hey, I remember you!! Thanks for coming out again.” <33 I LOVE HIM. I LOVE them all!! Then we went to go watch All Time Low’s set.. ZACKKKKK<33 Oh gosh, him and his sexay bod!! Can’t ever get enough of that;] Then VersaEmerge played last and this time they played the BEST EVER!! SOOOOO many crowd surfers I COULDN’T even count them all.. && i was SOOOO into it that my head started hurting afterwards cause i head banged too hard i guess. MUAHA... and Blake even came over after their set and HANDED me his guitar pick;] I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM<33 After, we were all POOPED so we went to go eat at one of the BEST Mexican food places EVER!! SO GOOD. We PIGGED out like no other. Fun times Fun times:]

Then Sunday (the VERY next day) was Warped tour in LA. Basically I just wanna talk about VersaEmerge…(haha, when do I NOT want to talk about them). So after their set I went to the side to tell Blake what a GREAT show they just played and ahhhh we conversated.. he was all tired and sweating but still a HUGE grin on his face:] So I felt bad cause he was putting things away so I was about to leave, then he holds his arms out and gives me the biggest hug of life but I was sweaty too so I said, “Oh sorry im all sweaty” && he was all “Haha totally cool, so am I. You’re gonna go to our tent for the signing right” && I said “Yah:]” so I left with butterflies in my tummy. When I went to their tent, their meet and greet line was the longest I’ve ever seen it, so that made it easy for me to give away all my VersaEmerge stickers out… but wow, I just KNOW VersaEmerge is gonna hit it BIG TIME.. they deserve it, they’re SO TALENTED and oh gosh I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. The next few minutes went by like this… Anthony high fived me and said I was cool? Haha… Jerry complimented my tattoo and said Relient K was “SO PUNK ROCK” haha some more... and then BLAKE, OH BLAKE…asked if I got tickets to the Love Drunk Tour (their fall tour with Boys Like Girls and Cobra Starship) and I said OF COURSE and he was all “Ok good, cause I’d be SURPRISED if you didn’t!!” Then for the group picture I came and Blake said, “Oh look, it’s our stalker!” and I yelled at him-___- “HEY!! WHAT??” Then with the CUTEST smirk he said, “But that’s why we LOVE you… duhhhh!” Then we took our picture and then some RANDOM WEIRD lady runs right in front of us and poses for the picture.. haha so Jerry points to her and says, “TAKE THE PICTURE TAKE THE PICTURE..!!” and Blake was all, “What’s going on? Who IS this person?!” Haha…. That was funny. “SEE YOU SOOOOON”… I know next time I see them, they’ll remember me<33 Basically, the aftermath of the day, I got SOOOO burnt:/ but it was ALL worth it in the end!!:] I'm gonna miss Warped Tour: A Rocket To The Moon, Meg and Dia, The Maine, All Time Low, 3Oh!3, Forever The Sickest Kids, and OF COURSE VersaEmerge<33 I hope next year is even as HALF as good as this year's.. it'll make my summer:] Oh, P.S… this night I dreamt that I went to Taco Bell and Blake (VersaEmerge) was there and offered if I wanted a taco, and I said YES and so I turn and Sierra (lead singer) was in the Taco Bell costume and was making my taco!! Hahahha… wow. That was weirdddd but entertaining i guess:]

Second thing I wanted to blog about: So let’s say my 4th FAVORITE band ever, The Cab lost my favorite member. His name is Cash Colligan. He was my FAVORITE bassist of all time. The way he plays was just SO SEXY and oh my I loved him. The day I GOT BACK from Canada, they announced that he was gonna leave the band to follow a “different” dream. I’m not mad at him. I’m just… sad for myself. I thought I would eventually get over it, but till THIS day, it’s been a WEEK, and I don’t EVER think I’ll get over it. Every time I see a bass, I think of Cash. The Cab just WON’T be the same without him FOR SURE.. I still love The Cab, but it’s not the same band I FELL IN LOVE WITH. No more Ian, and NOW, no more Cash…my FAVORITE:’[ it sucks cause I STILL want to listen to the Cab’s music and go to their shows… I just don’t know if I can handle it. I don’t know if I can look on stage and see SOMEONE ELSE besides Cash playing the Bass. I don’t know if I can listen to their music without thinking about Cash. I know I don’t KNOW him, but … it’s a weird emotional thing I have with him I guess. I’m really weird like that. I’m sad again:/ Thanks for listening to me blog about things I don’t know who would care about. Ha. School next week-___- Great.

Oh Canadaaa

Every Summer, my family takes a trip somewhere..anywhere. Whether it’s to have a good time, spend family time, vacate, or just have some plain fun… we find time every Summer to get away. This year, we chose to get away to CANADA!!:] Now, the plan was to go to Cancun, but since that didn’t work out, maybe we can save that trip for NEXT Summer:] Now the Ha family, let’s just say this is a family I KNOW FOR A FACT we will know till the day I die. The Ha’s include my bestest pal Catie (aka Gale-for reasons that are too long to explain), her little 11 year old brudder Matthew, and her nice, fun, my second pair of mom and daddy, parents. Basically, we go on MANY trips with them cause they’re just TOO FUN:] So August 13th we had to wake up at 4:00AM to catch the 7AM plane trip to Vancouver. It was pretty easy cause the plane ride was only 3 hours, but the BAD part was that I caught a HORRIBLE cold the day of and so the whole plane ride my head was KILLING me… but I eventually got better within the next day!!:] I LOVE MY IMMUNE SYSTEM!! We got to Vancouver and toured a few landmarks, pretty interesting. But the beauty didn’t come until the next 4 days when we bussed it up to the Canadian ROCKIES!! Took us a full 2 days to get up there, but it was all worth it in the end cause LET ME TELL YOU, one of the MOST BEAUTIFUL places I have EVER seen!! I mean the enormous mountains over the crystal blue lakes… the icy snow caps atop the luscious scene of evergreen trees… the vigorous refreshing waterfalls pounding over the quietest of rivers…words can NOT describe the true beauty of the Rocky Mountains<33 One of these days, me and my sister thought it FIT to film the famous FOREST scene from Twilight!! HAHA. Took us like 13 takes, but we FINALLY got it... "You're a..." "Say it... OUT LOUD!" "A Vampire..." "Are you afraid" "No." HAHA. Perfect surroundings. Too bad we didn't see any of the cast members roaming about:/ The last day we went on a HUGE ferry to Victoria Island… not my lap top;] haha lame joke. Awkward Balloon-___- Anyways, at Victoria Island we visited the famous Butchart Gardens. I honestly didn’t think too much of it until I ACTUALLY got there and saw the illustrious garden poached over the horizon. Like an oil painting with just the most PERFECT strokes singing in the ways of the artist. Colors everywhere. It was pure splendor. Unfortunately, soon enough it was ALREADY time to go back back to Cali Cali… We took the night plane to Los Angeles on Tuesday August 18th … on the plane ride I watched “I Love You, Man”…Let me JUST say, I FREAKING loved it SOSOSOOO much!! I hate watching good movies on the plane… if it’s sad or too happy… I CRY and when I cry, I SOB-___- so usually, I get attention from either the person next to me, or sometimes, the stewardess-___- If the movie’s funny, like this one… I LAUGH, and when I laugh, LET ME TELL YOU.. I CRACK UP as if I’m GASPING for air-___- HAHA. So true though. I laughed so hard.. oh man it was just SO HILARIOUS!! I LOVELOVELOVEEEE Paul Rudd!! Oh, Mike Hannigan:] He is just so naturally funny:] “Slapping da bass/Pistol Pete” LOVED that movie. Back home finally…Great trip. Got to see nature at its finest AND spend time with my family and the Ha family<33 Hope to go on another fun filled trip with them SOON..!! It’s ALL good to go;]

5 things I missed the most. One: my lap top, VICTORIAA<33 Two: My bidet… I felt so DIRTY every time I used the restroom without it. Three: Panera Bread (since I eat it usually every OTHER day) Four: Trina my phone (no texting? WHAT?!) && Five: My puppies<33 Oh my, Pumba PEED on me this morning when I went to go pick him up from the animal hospital… the love of a mother and son;]

Them 3 Brothers<33

So it’s 3:03 AM and yet I am DETERMINED to write my Jonas Brothers blog for the very few of my friends who even like them. Basically, I wanna write this cause I KNOW my sister wants to read it;] Teehee!! Anyways, so everyone who knows me KNOWS I LOVELOVELOVE the Jonas Brothers. && if they don’t, then they don’t KNOW me… HA. Anyyyhoo, so this past Friday August 7th, 2009 me and my sister went to the Jonas Brothers World Tour show at the Staples Center. For people who don’t know, me and my sister (Pauline) call each other the MUSUBISISTAZ. It’s just this thang we came up with cause we’re lame and think we’re cool cause we have a name for ourselves-___- But yah we have a YouTube channel and everything. We’re planning on making a Twitter too for our random memories we make together:D We’re SOOO cool!! Ok so our tickets were Floor Section 7 Row 13 Seats 13 and 14 (basically at the end of the catwalk to the right). I got these tickets presale from JonasBrothers Fan Club like in APRIL!! So we’ve been waiting QUITE a while… The show was SOOO AMAZINGGG<33 No joke. I think even if you didn’t like the Jonas Brothers, you would STILL have had a great time!! There were SO MANY surprises… You’re probably thinking “Don’t you already know what’s gonna happen at the tour” since there’s SO MANY videos on fansites, youtube, oceanup and such… but we MusubiSistaz made this weird pack every tour that we would NOT watch ANY videos until AFTER our show cause we LOVE being surprised to the FULLEST!! It’s all worth it TRUST ME. For instance, when Kevin came out in that WHITE TRENCH COAT.. I DIED a little<33 and then the RAIN from the ceiling… DIED EVEN MORE!! && all those lasers and lights and trampoline and blues horn section and spinning center stage and lifted stage and and and OH MAN so cool. So fun. I was so amazed at just HOW COOL their stage was.. and just HOW EXPENSIVE it must’ve been!! But they can afford it cause they SELL OUT every show date they play!! NO DUH. Which reminds me… so the openers for Jonas. 1st: Honor Society.. this must’ve been my 4th or 5th time I’ve seen them. && at first I was like, Oh they’re just like ANY OTHER band and whatevz about them. But each time I see them I start to like them more:] Which is good cause they’re good friends with JB:] 2nd: WonderGirls… Ummm, well I don’t like KOREAN music, but since their ONE SONG they performed (Nobody) was in English, I was ok I guess. But me and Paul could NOT stop laughing!! Puahaha their accent and dancing is so funny? I don’t know how to describe it without being too mean:/ Sorry, it’s just NOT my styleeee. 3rd: Jordin Sparksssss!!<33 I ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY love this girl SO MUCH!! She has everything. From the perfect voice (American Idol winner DUHHH), to the CUTEST hair, to the most fitting body I’ve ever seen, to the bubbliest personality!! If we met, no DOUBT we would hit it off && become BFFs;] Haha. I wish:/ Then… JONAS BROTHERSSSSS!! Even though this was my 9th time seeing them in concert performing, they have YET to stop AMAZING me beyond my MINDDDD!! They are just SO ENTERTAINING!! I don’t know what to say about the concert… lemme try. Songs the sung/singed?-___- haha. Paranoid, Hold On, That’s Just The Way We Roll (Musubisistaz Anthem), Play My Music, Poison Ivy, Fly With Me, Black Keys, A Little Bit Longer, Much Better, Year 3000, Tonight, Gotta Find You, Turn Right (MAJOR tear jerker for me), When You Look Me In The Eyes (Brings back SO many memories), Pizza Girl/Give Love A Try, Live To Party, Sweet Caroline (Cover), BB Good, World War 3, Battlefield w/Jordin Sparks of course, Love Bug, SOS, Burnin’ Up… !! I know, LONG… but TRUST ME, it felt SO SHORT!! Their set was almost TWO HOURS, but it felt like only LITERALLY like 45 minutes!! TIME FLIES WHEN YOU’RE HAVING A BLASTTTT!! Well this is getting long… so… SHOW HIGHLIGHTS: “Much Better” when Joe lip synch’s Nick’s part and DANCES the CUTEST dance everrrrr!! Seriously, he’s never done anything cuterrrr. Me and my sister were going BANANASSS oh man.. had to HOLD OURSELVES DOWN!! “Love Bug” when Kevin came out with the umbrella and trench coat && then the RAIN cameeee<33 BEAUTIFUL. “Year 3000” when Joe dances with the horn band. “Gotta Find You” when Kevin STARED at our poster that read lyrics (you’re the missing piece I need, the song inside of me) So worth ALL those hours making it. “Turn Right” when… well THE ENTIRE SONGGGG. I bawled-___- even after seeing them 16 times total…they STILL have a way of TUGGING on my heart strings. But I knew from the VERY start after listening to Turn Right on the album that if they performed it, I was gonna cry. But I didn’t know I was gonna BREAK DOWNNN (more than I have EVER broken down for ANY musical performance for SURE). People were STARING at me && I felt so dumb, but I couldn’t help it!! The more I held it in, the MORE tears ran down my face, so I eventually gave in and cried on my sister’s shoulder && I KNOW she was secretly laughing at me:/ My eyes BURNED from all the tears. I’m only sharing this cause “Turn Right” is SUCH a good and well written song<33 MOST DEF one of my favorites of all time. Then of course “When You Look Me In The Eyes”. This song brings me back. Back to 2007 when I could buy a JB ticket for THIRTY bucks and be within 10 feet from them!! Back when I started to obsess with what has now become one of my FAVORITE music groups of ALL TIME. Back when I didn’t know they were gonna be THIS famous. I’m so proud of them<33 Oh oops, getting side tracked!! Ok.. back to the highlights… ummm OH!! “SOS” Classic Kevin Jonas Dance<33 and “ Battlefield” when Jordin rejoins the stage with JB!! Aw Jordin and Joe are SUCH CUTE FRIENDS!! Like older sis younger bro type friends. Like Jordin BABIES Joe around && it’s just the DARN CUTEST thing alive. SO MANY HIGHLIGHTS. But basically, it was an AMAZING night with my sister<33 I LOVE HER. In my opinion, I think she’s lucky to have a 19 year old sister who still makes posters and shirts for JB:] Not your typical college kid;] But I LOVE IT!!

Moving on as if this blog wasn’t already LONG ENOUGH… Tonight I went to my 2nd World Tour show. This time, my brother came along so we were the MusubiSiblings for the night;] haha. Basically, same seats but on the OTHER side. HAHA jkjk this time we were SO MUCH CLOSERRRR!! Floor Section 3. Row 2. Seat 1-3 so we were RIGHT in the middle in front of the center stage.. :] Same show as Friday but this time we were CLOSER so it was MORE FUN.. FUNNNERRRR!! Haha. They each took turns coming RIGHT in front of us<33 Sighhhhh. This show we were on the opposite side from Friday so we got to experience a different way from Friday which I liked a LOT cause we got foamed from Joe and Kevi!! SO FUN. So refreshinggg. I took the CUTEST pic of Joe by the way… SMILING the BIGGEST smile I’ve EVER seen him smile;] LOVE HIM. && yes, I cried AGAIN for “Turn Right”. I’m not embarrassed though cause the people who read this far probably already KNOW that I’m a CRYBABY. I’m just VERY emotional. It’s sometimes depressing, but I cry HAPPY TEARS a LOT too so it evens out!!:] But there’s this one part in “Turn Right” towards the end when Joe sings “Turrrnnnn Righttttt” and oh man. That part ALWAYS gets me. EVEN when I listen to it in Troy… I LOVE JOE’S VOICE SO MUCH. PRECIOUS. BEAUTIFUL. So manly<33 But I love how in “Turn Right” he sings falsetto/high so it shows his dynamic talent of singing<33 I didn’t cry as much as Friday’s show though!! There’s a plus there!! Haha:] This time though when Joe did his “Much Better” dance, I cried happy tears.. SIMPLY cause he was SO CUTE/shmexy as HALE!! I want a boy like Joe. Haha. But then again, WHO WOULDN’T right;] …… I guess Camilla-___- HER LOSS!! What a loser. She is SOOOO gonna regret it!! But DEEP down inside I feel Joe dumped her ONLY cause I mean WHO IN THEIR RIGHT MIND WOULD DUMP JOE JONAS?!?!?! HATE HER. Continuing on… The show was so amazing and this time we could ACTUALLY see the “Love Bug” Rain part. Coolest thing I’ve ever seen at a show ever. Friday’s show, we were RIGHT in front of the rain, so we couldn’t see all the cool tricks the rain machine did. But since we were on the OTHER side this time, we saw it and LET ME TELL YOU, BEAUTY AT IT’S FINEST<33 The water from the ceiling came down and SPELLED, YES SPELLED… “Speechless”, “Love Bug”, “Jonas Brothers”, “Hopeless”, and the “JB” Logo and EVEN the Jonas Brothers silhouettes!! OUT OF WATERRRR!! Are you seriousssss…?!?! SO EFFING COOL!! Haha. Jonny was SO SHOCKED too!!:] *Ok, sooooo i thought i wrote about this part, but aparently i didn't... After Jordin Sparks came out again to sing "Battlefield", since Nick was playin the drums, he threw his drumsticks and he was RIGHT in front of where we were sitting. But the Drumsticks didn't get thrown into the crowd, instead it went behind the barracades so i ran over and tried reaching for it since no one else knew about it.. then this LAME GAY LAME security guard came and i thought "Oh YES he's gonna get it for me" (since i was the ONLY one trying to reach for it).. THEN this little boy comes over and the security guard nearly HALFWAY gives me the drumstick but then he sees the boy && snatched it back from my hands && yells, "No! it's for the KID!!" WHAT THE MOTHER HEFFERRRR?! Are you KIDDING me. Wow :[ i wanna cry just thining about it:'[ I COULD HAVE GOTTEN NICK JONAS'S FRIKKING DRUMSTICKKKK!! It was SO mine. I'm sure Nick would rather me, a fan, get his stick than some random little kid who's probably never gonna touch that drumstick ever again-___- Ugh. Besides that... we all had a GREAT time. Memories that will last forever.

That’s why I love these boys. They give me memories. They give me happiness. Although sometimes I’ve gotta say they made me so sad cause I love them so much and they have NO idea I exist… but the good times overcome the sad times FOR SURE. All those grueling moments before presale tickets go on sale… ALL WORTH it in the end cause those boys KNOW JUST HOW TO put on a PERFECT show<33 All in all, two great shows, two great nights, 3 brothers who each have their own way of making my heart MELT<33

Just to make this blog the LONGEST of 'em all… ;] The Jonas Brothers. The Jonas Brothers. I don’t like them cause they’re whats popular. I don’t like them for their looks (well at least not ONLY for their looks;] ). I don’t like them cause they’re Disney. I LOVE them cause they’re REAL. Real as it can get. I don’t like how people MAGICALLY just stop liking them. If you do, then you didn’t even TRULY love them to begin with. I don’t like how people make FUN of them cause they have purity rings. If you do, then your desires are worldy and in the end YOU will be the one with the regrets. I don’t like how people bash on their music. If you do, then you don’t know the meaning of LYRIC over melody. I don’t like how people say they dress weird. If you do, then go look in the mirror && notice how you dress JUST like everybody else around you.. it’s called CONFORMITY, try being DIFFERENT for once. I ESPECIALLY don’t like how people call Kevin the “ugly one” or the “gay one” or the “untalented one”. If you do, then you, for one thing, don’t THINK before you SPEAK. You don’t know how to show respect. You judge upon what you THINK you know, thinking INSIDE the box. Kevin Jonas is an AMAZING musician and even a BETTER person. If you think he’s engaged JUST for sex? Well one thing is FOR SURE..not only are you not a Kevin Jonas fan, you’re not even a Jonas Brothers fan. RULE NUMBER ONE. You can NOT call yourself a Jonas Brothers fan if you don’t have immense love for Kevin Jonas. Sure little kids don’t know any better than to say “I LOVE YOU NICK!!” I know that, but I hate how people comment “Ugh, Kevin is so ugly.” or “I don’t like Kevin, why is he even in the band?” Ticks me off. Kevin is the friendliest Jonas. He has a heart of gold<33 Jonas Brothers wouldn’t be Jonas BROTHERS without Kevin. He’s the backbone…. Sorry I got carried away with my Jonas Brothers blog:/ I just can’t thank them ENOUGH for everything they did and STILL DO.. for me!! For bringing me and my sister closer through music and fun. For presenting me with music that makes me feel YOUNG and ALIVE!! For allowing me to attend events/shows where I ALWAYS have a BOMB TIMEEE. For showing me that your FIRST love will always last forever (aiming towars NILEY;] ). For encouraging me to “NEVER SLOW DOWN”. For PROVING that with God, “Living The Dream” is possible. && most importantly, for making LASTING memories from today till the day I have my own grandkids && tell them about how much I LOVED THE JONAS BROTHERSSSSS!! :D Thank YOU. Don’t thank us. We didn’t do ANYTHING in comparison to what you boys have done for ALL OF US… all the THOUSANDS and THOUSANDS of us;]<33

Its 4:31am. I think I got carried away-___- ahhhhh I have to sleep… LeeLim Beach trip in like 8 hours!!:]

I wish LIFE was a musical...

I know I’ve said this countless times before… but I REALLY do wish life was a musical. And not just MY life, but life in general. I mean come on… everyone dances together and knows all the steps so no one feels excluded, everyone sings in harmony with one another so no one feels like they don’t belong, people wear the most colorful cute clothes that match so no one feels out of place, the guy always gets the girl or vice versa so no one is left alone, && my FAVORITE part… the ending is always happy and fun so no one is depressed or sad… Seriously though, sometimes I wish for this to come true SO BAD that I break out into song and dance for a good few seconds until I realize no one else is joining in-___- Trust me… it really ISN’T the same when you want to be in a musical with only yourself. Hahaaa. Anywayssss the reason why I’m contemplating on this subject is cause I went to “Footloose” today with my sister (Jennine was supposed to come but plans change all the time right?). So Troy took us to Riverside Community College to watch this musical which takes place in the 80s era of rock n’ rolllll:] Ok so WHO AM I KIDDING, even though I LOVE musicals with ALL my heart and would rather see a musical than any other genre of media/movies… the TRUE reason I went was cause the lead role was played by AJ.Rafael!! No, I don’t know him personally, but I really love him as an artist, he is SO inspirational frealzz. So when I found out he was gonna be in a musical, I just HAD TO HAD TO go!! DUHHHH… Love him!! He was soooooo good as Ren McCormack!! He played this rebellious, dancing, singing, rock and rolling divaaaaa!! Haha. He sang like an angel, danced like an angel, but MOST importantly, he LOOKED like an angel<33 it was NO reason why he got the lead role… He was so perfect for the part!! And who knew he could ACT as well!! Why is this boy so GIFTED!! For those of you who don’t know who I’m taking about… PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE give him a listen at YOUTUBE.COM/ilajil … you will NOT be disappointed. *Just a side thought, IMAGINE I auditioned and got a part in this musical?!?!?! That’d be SUCH a dream come true. Get to be in a musical ANDDDD get to work with AJ!! He really does inspire me. I remember the FIRST time I saw his blogtv (live video chat) I was so inspired… WOW he is so godly at the piano<33 Makes me wanna practice EVERY SINGLE DAY… which is what I basically did for a while after watching his chats… but life caught up with me. If I was as talented as him… which I am NO WHERE near… I WOULD no doubt be as dedicated as he is, but my life calls for something else I guess:/ But seriously, I’m so glad AJ uses his gift of music for the better && uses it to INSPIRE<33 It truly works. Dang, sometimes I wonder why I wasn’t gifted in dancing, singing, and acting so I could be in musicals. I would KILL to be in a Hairspray production of ANY kind. Tracy Turnblad’s role was basically MADE for me!! Makes me kinda sad. But at least I’m free to dream. At least I have the freedom for those One Hundred and Seventeen minutes, to PRETEND as if I’m a part of the movie, to dance and sing as LOUD as I want without anyone glaring at me as if I were some weirdo. Don’t make fun of me for watching Hairspray a kabajillion times so that I know every line, lyric, && dance move… Turn that sucker on && I’m sucked into my own little world…!! But it’s the only FOR SURE way to make me smile NO MATTER what:] Sighhhhhh… *SNAP back to reality!!... I just hope one day I can use my gift, whatever that might be, to inspire like AJ does… to use it for the better, to use it and be happy, to use it and finally feel that I have made my mark in this world…some way, somehow, any way, ANY how.

“&& you can try to stop my dancin’ feet but I just can not stand still<33”

I LOVE MUSICALSSSSSSS<33 (P.S. I can NOT wait till “Footloose” the MOVIE comes out with babe Chace Crawforddddd!! I’m gonna SQUEEEEEEL like a lil’ girllllll…!! There’s just sumthin’ ‘bout them rebellious, leather jacket- wearin’ boys that make the girls go carazayyyy;]!! )